i get all down on myself for what i do (not much), but also worth noting is this: have i ever done anything i didn't want to do? really? not really. i'm 27, financially independent (which is, to be honest, a big fucking deal); i live far from home, have my own friends, life, etc. here, and it has all been long-coming, but not really that hard.

i don't know if that's the best or the worst thing about it.