oh MAN i am PMSing so hard (as in, woke up with eyes all puffy from my ginormous cry yesterday) and just got home from picking a pretty big fight with r. I'M SORRY BUT he is going to be away the next four weekends in a row, then he'll be away for half of july, and then he'll be away for all of august. we have this weekend together, but he is writing his thesis now, and when i asked about a little day trip (its a long weekend), i got "i didn't make you do things when you were writing yours". AND YET decides to stay out tonight, after i met him at the bar - having been lead to believe i was picking him up - and i'm supposed to be fine with the fact that i haven't gotten laid in FOREVER, haven't been anywhere in ages since he is constantly travelling with his team, have no one to hang with this weekend since anyone with any sense is travelling with friends because it's a goddamn long weekend in june! we are THREE HOURS FROM CROATIA and i will be sitting on my couch getting high by myself. i don't mean to be overdramatic but i thought the point of being in a relationship was at least in part to avoid situations like that. i can't even be bothered to double click the mouse anymore bc it makes me too sad that i have to.