i would have but then i realized there is no point in feeling embarassed about making myself ridiculous (sending dirty text messages). you are not actually part of my life, and in a year or two, you will just be some guy i knew for a while, while i was nursing my broken heart. i am driving my life again, and today in the shower, i couldn't stop wiping hot water off my face, like i was shedding a layer of somebody who wasn't me.