had one of those nights where every song i listened to was perfectly about me.

i really don't know what i am supposed to do next.

how long do i keep going like this? i'm not in love with c., and i'm not looking for love from anyone else. i don't want to fall asleep alone, but i don't want to wake up with anyone either-- well, i want to wake up with them, have coffee, breakfast, and maybe a cuddle, but i want to be by myself right now, i just don't know how to do it.